"Introduction
I
spent about 15 years without God in my life. For years, I was able to
fulfill my ambition of being a good businessman, working as the manager
of a lucrative company. I enjoyed both financial and personal success.
I
worked really hard in those days, but I got a lot of satisfaction out
of my job. It gave me a good salary, a good family situation, as well as
new friends and social contacts. Back then, I believed in myself, in my
own strength and gifts. I had faith in my success and I thought I could
do everything on my own. I was really successful, but I felt like
taking on new projects, so I decided to sell my shares of the company
where I worked to my brother.
This
was a period of dynamic growth and development. I really wanted to move
mountains, but I forgot to study the market, and I paid no attention to
the growing economic problems in Poland. Faith in my success gave me
wings, and I was doing very well.
I
invested in a new project that brought in a lot of money. I put myself
into it entirely, and, I repeat, I made a lot of money. At that time, I
wanted to delve deeper into the “great mystery” of the success stories
of millionaires and find out how I could reach those heights myself.
I
read books about what the fathers of great American fortunes had to say
on the topic of economic growth and large enterprises, written by
Rockefeller, Carnegie, etc.
Today,
I realize that in searching for self-growth I was turning to evil
powers.
I have to admit that the devil helped me at times. Now I can see
I was really involved in evil ways. It was a time of my life without
Christ. Even though I had grown up in a Catholic family, my parents
weren’t able to speak in depth about their Christian beliefs and they
didn’t transmit their faith in God to me. They left me totally free to
make my own decisions.
So
back then, I had no time for God, because in my mind, he wasn't the
source of truth and my life wasn't filled with God. I had distanced
myself from God, and this had serious consequences in my life. At the
beginning of the year 2008, the world was hit by a global financial
crisis. I was hit hard by that crisis and began to seek financial help.
That's when I turned to Mary.
When I was young, until I turned 15, I
participated in parish life. I made some pilgrimages from Warsaw to
Czestochowa. As a child, I had a great devotion to Mary, the Mother of
God, but everything quickly came to an end when I moved to Warsaw.
Since
I needed significant financial help at this point, I decided to go to
Czestochowa and ask Mary to help me. I remembered then that I had
somebody to turn to in hard times—God. And that time, I did get help
from God really quickly. A month later, I received nearly $670,000.
That's when I understood that Mary had asked God to help me in my life
and my future.
Over
the next few months, I started growing closer to God, little by little.
I decided to go to Mass and pray more often. And I noticed some changes
in my life.
My career still had its ups and downs. Never before had I
gone through hard times like that. It was a very difficult passage in my
life. During that period, the sign of the cross appeared on my horizon.
I recognized that cross in my life, and, after two years, I finally
accepted it.
I
started to attend Sunday Mass on a regular basis, not at my parish
church, but at a church nine miles from where I lived, called Our Lady
of the Savior, in Warsaw.
Why did I want to go there? Actually, for a
long time, I didn't really know why, but after a few months, I realized
that Mary herself had led me to that church. After praying in that
church for several months, I received a great sign.
My
journey began with Mary, from Medjugorje to Kibeho, so to speak. After a
few months of participating in the Mass, on May 2, 2010, which was the
Sunday of apparitions in Medjugorje, I suddenly decided to go to a
bookstore, and bought a book on the apparitions of Medjugorje.
I loved
the messages it contained and studied those messages for many months.
That's when I decided it was time to change my life. I wanted to leave
my job and completely dedicate my life to serve God. I still hadn't
figured out how, but I wanted to serve him more.
I
had two Marian projects connected to evangelization in mind. First of
all, I wanted to create of a new international Marian community for
children and young people, and I also had two projects of evangelization
through the media. Those two projects later became two prayer
intentions during my pilgrimage to Kibeho. I can see today that Mary’s
messages were the foundations of events that would happen to me in the
future.
The
next important step that I took was to make a pilgrimage to the Shrine
of Gietrzwald, situated in the north of Poland. It's a Marian shrine I
had heard about a few weeks earlier at the Church of Our Lady of the
Savior during announcements after Mass. I went to that shrine at the end
of August, and after the visit I went to the bookstore. I was attracted
to a book on Our Lady of Kibeho written by Immaculée Ilibagiza. I
bought the book, even though I had no intention of buying one there,
just like before with Medjugorje.
During
the evening of the same day, I started reading that book and it really
touched my heart.
I felt an impulse to answer the call of Mary, Mother
of the Word of Kibeho. My first thought was to get myself to Kibeho as
fast as possible—just to hop on a plane and go to Africa. The message of
Our Lady of Kibeho deeply affected me. I felt Mary's closeness, deep in
my heart. After two weeks of non-stop thinking about Kibeho, I really
felt in my heart that I needed to make a pilgrimage to Kibeho on foot.
From that moment a new chapter began in my life called "to God through
Mary."
The
following weeks were almost like before. I still had my old job, but my
inner conversion progressed and the dynamic was totally new: it had a
Marian pace! This was also a time of discernment about the pilgrimage. I
wondered if that invitation had really come from Mary. And only after a
whole year of waiting did I receive an answer from Mary.
One
day in September, I felt drawn to pray, and went to Saint Michael the
Archangel and Saint Florian Cathedral in Warsaw. Before going into the
church, a woman from Africa came up to me and asked me: “Where is the
parish office?” I told her and at the same time asked her: “Where are
you from?” She said that she was from Rwanda, and introduced herself as
Alphonsine. I was dumbstruck, and when I went inside the church I
realized that it was September 15, the feast of Our Lady of Sorrows.
Suddenly, everything started to make sense to me. It really was Mary's
invitation, her real invitation! She was confirming my mission of going
to Kibeho on foot.
The
three months that followed my final decision were spent preparing for
the pilgrimage, but in the form of carrying Jesus’ cross each day. I
understood now what the cross was. Mary talked about the cross in
Kibeho. This step in preparing for my pilgrimage was crucial.
The pilgrimage to Kibeho
I
started my pilgrimage on October 12, 2012, the opening day of the Year
of Faith. It is true that I had planned to leave a few days before that,
but professional reasons prevented me from leaving earlier.
I
started my pilgrimage with a great sense of hope and a great trust in
Jesus and Mary. A 3,700-mile adventure awaited me. I was well prepared
spiritually and I had organized the itinerary. I knew I was doing God's
will.
However,
there were two problems that I wasn't prepared for. First, the physical
demands, because I lacked time for that. The other problem was the
financial aspect. The day of my departure, I had only 30% of the planned
budget for the pilgrimage.
From a human perspective, I shouldn’t have
set off on that pilgrimage. I couldn't just get up and go without making
sure I had enough money to reach my destination. But I surrendered
everything to Jesus; I offered myself to him and gave him everything
throughout my pilgrimage.
I
started my pilgrimage at the Shrine of Gietrzwald.
I walked across
Poland and Europe; made a stop in Medjugorje; went to Turkey where I had
planned to visit Maremana in Ephesus, the place where Mary spent the
last years of her earthly life. After that, I continued on my pilgrimage
to the last region of Europe: the Syrian border. With Europe and Turkey
combined, I had walked at least 2,350 miles on foot.
Syria was off
limits, so I had to fly to Addis-Abeba, Ethiopia, and continue my
pilgrimage to Kibeho from there. I crossed Ethiopia, Kenya, Uganda and
Rwanda.
When
I started my pilgrimage, I felt strong with the trust I had in Jesus
and Mary.
It was that hope that led me each day towards Kibeho. I opened
my heart and my soul to God's presence like never before, and asked him
each day to convert me, change my heart and my thoughts, and everything
that wasn't good about me, so I could be healed and live in God. The
days of my pilgrimage were a time of prayer, meditation on the Gospel,
and deep reflection—in the light of the Gospel—not only on my life, but
also on past events surrounding the life of my family.
It was also a
time of work, because a pilgrimage on foot requires a lot of physical
effort, good organization and clever planning in order to complete the
entire journey to Kibeho.
I
can honestly say that each day was filled with God's grace and Mary's
protection.
When I walked, I met many people who promised to pray for me
and who helped me financially.
When I needed help, God always gave me a
sign and a concrete form of help. Mary took good care of me so I
wouldn't lack anything, in terms of money, organization, and especially
concerning the spiritual necessities that mattered the most to me. In
retrospect, I see that always I got the financial help I needed from
different sources, and I never lacked the physical strength to walk.
The
first part of my pilgrim was quite uneventful. I walked, prayed, and
meditated on the presence of Jesus in my life. In Europe, I experienced
all sorts of weather. I walked in sunny autumn days and in the rain. I
walked while admiring the beauty of winter, surrounded by the majesty of
white snow, but also in the cold, in the splendid bright sun, and in
Africa, of course, in the scorching heat under the African sun.
The
most important part of my pilgrimage began at the end of the European
leg of the trip, when I reached Africa. It was a very fruitful time,
rich in meditations on God’s presence in my life.
I now know that I
received great gifts from God because since that time, until today, I
have been able to meditate on the greatest problem in the life of human
beings: sin. I would never have thought before that one day I’d find
myself meditating on the topic of sin. Yet today, my life is centered on
the discernment between good and evil. My meditations were mainly about
personal memories, times of great suffering in my family and the lives
of others, and also the memory of some events that happened in my
country, Poland, all the suffering in the world, and in Rwanda.
Through
those meditations, I began to understand a brutal truth: each
evil—called sin—is often nurtured by ourselves and over a long period of
time. Very often it is transmitted from parents to their children, and
as a result children commit the same sins when they grow up. Because of
this problem, we can see that children continue to live a bad life, a
life of sin, even when they are older. This happens in many families,
including Christian families, where Christ isn't accepted and professed
by the whole family. In my case, and in the case of my close relatives,
we were raised in the Christian tradition, but sometimes in a very
superficial way.
These
petty foundations of Christian life have caused a massive abandonment
of the Church and the sacraments, and the consequence is that people are
plunged into different forms of sin, some of them very modern and
sometimes very attractive. If we spend our lives far away from God, we
are unable to recognize evil when it comes our way—evil that is secretly
hidden under different forms, often invisible and even looking almost
innocent.
Mary
said in Kibeho that faith and unbelief could come unnoticed. Looking at
my own life, the life of my family, my relatives and society, I see
that her message is still very relevant today. In her message of Kibeho,
Mary warns us to beware, to think carefully. If we fail to build a
strong relationship with God—with his grace—we can easily drift away
from him.
From
time to time we live under the illusion that everything is going just
fine, but that isn't true. That’s why I had gone through some very hard
times in previous years, and experienced tragic situations in my family.
There have been suicides and many conflicts. Of course, my neighbors
and friends have had similar difficulties, maybe to a lesser degree than
in my family, with divorce, alcoholism, drug addictions, etc. … Those
problems are found in many families, in the Polish society, and really
anywhere in the world.
Satan's
strategy is very simple: he will do anything to take people away from
God. He gives people what they desire, and then he destroys them. His
favorite tactic is to divide families. This often happens over a period
of several years, and this is why the onset of the problems often goes
unnoticed.
Again,
we don't recognize that the major problem in our difficulties is the
fact that we accumulate sins over a period of several years, and we lead
a life where God is absent and almost invisible. Without God people
can't solve the totality of their problems and difficulties.
Only
Jesus, who invites us to carry his cross on which our sins are
destroyed, can heal us from our problems and weaknesses. Jesus tells us
what the best way is, the one that gives us a new life. He is the one
who shows us the Truth, because he is the Truth.
The
problem of sin doesn't only affect our loved ones and us. It concerns
our whole society and the whole world. Rwanda suffered a great tragedy,
an incomprehensible genocide, and is an example of this.
Today,
in Europe and in the world, we are reaping the fruits of lives lived
without God. The consequences are causing a sort of crisis that makes
our society sick. It has been going on for several years and will
probably continue for a while longer. But in my opinion, the Lord wants
to give us his mercy. He warns us with gentle love, and invites us to
change our lives. During my frequent meditations, I noticed that Mary’s
messages in Kibeho spoke of these things: the cross, conversion, and a
change of life.
From
then on, I began to understand that Mary doesn't just want to express
what the power of evil is and what its consequences are in our life.
Above all, with the message of Kibeho, she wants me to warn people that
living without God doesn't make them strong, and doesn't give them a
chance to live in the Truth, because God alone is Love and only with him
can we build a life that is True. Where God is absent, evil has strong
roots, and that's where Satan does his harvest, the black harvest.
This
is why the message of Our Lady of Kibeho will have a lot of impact when I
tell my story. The message of Mary, Mother of the Word, is very present
in my evangelization projects that I brought to Mary as well. I asked
for her protection and blessing, because I feel that these projects
represent God's plans for our time.
I
finished my blessed pilgrimage by God's grace and thanks to Mary's
protection that I felt was with me every single day. After 11 months and
3,700 miles of walking, I arrived in Kibeho, on September 7, 2013, the
vigil of the feast of the Nativity of the Virgin Mary.
Living
in the presence of Mary and Jesus in this holy place, I continue to
meditate on the message of Mary in the context of my pilgrimage. The
message is very relevant and many people want to hear it. I especially
dedicate this testimony to Immaculée,
Peter
Imana ibahe umugisha.
God bless you.
THE END"
God bless you.
THE END"
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